Thursday, November 5, 2009


Gravitation, or gravity, is a natural phenomenon by which objects with mass attract one another.[1] In everyday life, gravitation is most familiar as the agent that lends weight to objects with mass and causes them to fall to the ground when dropped. (thanks wikipedia)

Monday, November 2, 2009


the hardest thing to do in this world is change.

Monday, October 12, 2009

sum it up

things i am working on right now:
1. being okay with the fact that i may never have something i really want. its very hard for me. could i really be happy or just relatively compared to having that one thing? will this feeling pass? its knocking me sideways.
2. doing something everyday that makes me feel better than yesterday. physically, mentally, emotionally it doesn't matter.
3. running.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

sunday sunday sunday

its okay with me if things don't work out.
its okay with me if you happen to not understand where i'm coming from.
its okay with me if you don't want to know who i am.
i get it. there are millions of people and situations that i am never going to grasp.

that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.
that doesn't mean i sleep well at night.
that doesn't mean a god damn fucking thing to me.

Thursday, August 6, 2009

a let down.

Today I realized how much I would be devastated if anything happened to my dog.
I am also disappointed in one person's complete ambivalence to my suffering and my dog's health.

Why can't someone just really show me that they value my feelings and understand the things that are most important to me. I believe that one of the requirements of love is that you should completely accept and care about the other person above all others. And by accept I mean value that others feelings and treat them as your own. Its not enough to say I love you. ever.

There are just some things about one you care about that become apparent over time. And if you consistently miss these things and there significance well then I just don't know what to say. Maybe its because you truly don't love them, or care about them like you want to believe. Nothing is in harmony and yet there is not enough discord to make progress.

les petites misere de la vie humaine....

Monday, June 1, 2009

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

e.e. cummings. this is how i feel right now. so confused by life, how am i ever to figure it

Monday, May 4, 2009

I will opt out...
tired of other people's view on my life.

Just a tired girl trying to do something with her life,
besides the same old.
Sad because this has caused a divide.

I used to depend on you to be an anchor...
now your just a warning sign.

Where do i look now for the lighthouse?